Why ................................?

Why???? why people never ask why??? do people now never use their ability to think? or just because the don't have enough time to think??? because of lack of time??? crowd of jobs? or other problems???? why ??? why???





nodays i feel that everyday come every hours, every minute, every second come and go very very very fast did you all my bro and sis realize that? everthing looks not good, boring and what ??? fuuuiiiihhhh lazyness comes along cause nothing can do but time doesn't stop, try to cry but for what? try to call someone, but for what too??? try the last one PRAY??? because of the crowded of the jobs or anything else i forget to pray to my dear Lord. oh forgive me Lord :( hope You will accept me again tobe your son :) my age keep running day by day, minute by minute, my hope getting dead :( why??? try to look the answer more and more i try i'm getting more confuse and frustate. i lost my time with people that i "should love" (like other human beeing done) why i lost that feel??? :( why ??? why??? i want to love without any pretend. why people around me still love me???? why??? why??? is that the sin from God??? my father loves me but i don't reconize, my Mom loves me but i dontt realize, my brother loves me but i don't realze, also my dog bro loves me but i don't realize too. very pathetic condition :( do money loves me??? do my dreams loves me??? so far until now i live from hope and hope and hope again, first time it's looked good for a few years but ???? why??? all that spirit all that hope, all friends that was my best friends all gone??? was that because of aged keep running??? all i needed was provided, all i wanted was provided but??? why??? feel so dry now, why i want to cry??? why??? try and try to look the answer but it not come why??? is this that call a trial session??? why??? why i must grow up??? why ???
was i hoped that i could growht fast become older and older, but now what happen??? it like disaster :( why??? do my God and My Lord still loves me??? does He??? most people said that cry can solve your problems and make your brain work again, that's why so many people cry when they got problems. i want to cry now but why i can't, why??? is that so pathetic the condition of my earth or is this because my brain or my heart become dead slowly or it's dead already??? what medicine that i shall take??? is this a desease??? why??? so many article i read, so many wise sugesstion and advise that i taken and heard but why??? where is the spirit that was i lived with??? can time go back??? can i went back to my childhood and make this things better :(